Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.
At the end of this, choose five people to do this.
1. peiyee
2. derek
3. zhanteng
4. ahfai
5. ahlong
6. suwen
7. wyntrice
8. amos
9. jonathanteo
10. qinyi
11. samuela
12. kahhui
13. shannon
14. justina
15. carmen
16. sheery
17. priscilla
18. guanyuan
19. yup huat (however his name is spelt)
20. derrick
How did you meet #14 (justina)?
classmates.
What would you do if you didn't meet #1 (peiyee)?
i'd die earlier. =/
What if #9 (jteo) and #20 (derrick) dated?
that's so gay. and totally impossible.
Would #6 (suwen) and #17 (priscilla) make a good couple?
not one bit. HAHAHAH
Describe #3 (zhanteng).
uh.. quiet, tall, thin, smart, reads a lot. okay im not sure. that's a primary school friend.
Is #8 (amos) attractive?
uh.. i suppose so. counting on the fact that he's that old man.
Describe #7 (wyntrice).
funky, interesting, smart, pretty.. alot alot alot!
Do you know any of #12 (kahhui) family members?
nopes.
What would you do if #18 (guanyuan) confess to you that he likes you?
well. she's not a he. =)
What language does #15 (carmen) speak?
english, chinese, and maybe malay.
Who is #9 (jteo) going out with?
is this a pun? he went out with me yesterday. not sure about now. haha.
When is the last time you spoke to #13 (shannon)?
on the day i met him in the mp library, level4. =)
Who is #2's (derek) favourite band/singer?
so freaking obvious. she and jaychou!! but i suppose his 'wives' are included.
Would you ever date #4 (ahfai)?
haha. he's much older. =)
Would you ever date #1 (peiyee)?
if one day i become a lesbian, yes.
Is #15 (Carmen) single?
think so..
What's #10's (qinyi) last name?
lim!
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (samuela)?
healthy friendship, yes.
School of #3 (zhanteng)?
st. hilda sec. [past tense[
Where does #6 (suwen) live?
very much near aljunied mrt station =) footsteps away.
What's your fave thing about #5 (ahlong)?
friendly&nice. =)
Have you seen #1 (peiyee) naked before?
haha. make a guess.
The Five People Are:
nah. this is lame!!!!
im torn between
silent & violent expression
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
okay. this week's schedule ends today. on a thursday filled with television shows. =))
we went through so much trouble organising the day we watch huangjinjia to come back to square one, with the squareone people. aww. anyway, im going to see the show somehow la. so who cares! it's the work done that makes the whole thing interesting.
'she's overstretched. you? you can never be overstretched.'
that one thing that keeps ringing in my mind.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
the first thing that i noticed in bangkok are their pink, blue, orange, red&yellow etc taxis. VERY PRETTY. their nightlife is ssssooooo rowdy. the stalls on the streets are rather interesting. the clothes they sell are body hugging. the people here are mostly SLIM people. the girls here mostly have LOOONNNGGG hairs. the journey from bangkok to HuaHin is VERY LONG. like 3hours? we stopped by a petrol station. A&W is still surviving very well here. haha. i got to know my cousins better on this looonnnggg journey.
qinyi-- i received your message! thanks!
suwen -- thanks for your message! hmm, i think it should be alright because i have the roaming thing in the phone.
that's all!
im torn between
silent & violent expression
Friday, September 29, 2006
Friday, September 29, 2006
this week i went to peipei's house there to eat TWICE! first time was fish soup and duck with rice. it tasted great! and it felt like tuanyuanfan. second time i went there, i ate chickenchop which was okayokay. i know two ways of getting home from there. hopefully the next time i go, i wont get lost le.
this week. depression sort of sunk in. but anyway, it's gone now. all thanks to the.. wet pyjamas, 'on da street' gang [jokers] and my own trueblue brother. i'll take it in my stride and do whatever within my limits to make it better. it's just me and myself now.
'i gave it my all
but it wasnt enough
im giving up.
no, im pushing on.
what for?
making the same mistake
day after day
for such a rat race
i have no faith.
life has its up and down
and i hate it anyway
but i love it anyway.
one life one shot
that's all we ever got.
it takes two to make it right.
and that's me and my pride.
here we'll go
BEATING THE ODDS WITH A ROYALFLUSH!'
'everything is empty
everything is so messed up
everyone is changing
there's no one left that is real.
make up your own ending
let me know just how you feel.'
sad to say,
my largest motivation is still 041.
let's just keep it going on and on.
i wonder what you saw when you saw me crying. it felt weird when you told me not to go too far away and cry at a place where you cannot find and that you'd rather watch me cry. it felt nice when you said you had nothing to do and so you thought of messaging me. you made me feel nicer about myself when you said things like 'zhao gu you forever okay'. maybe im taking your words too seriously. anyway, it's so you to say those things.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Sunday, August 06, 2006
learnt a great pile from the show pei and i started watching recently. no, not the loveydovey stuffs. just. about being frank.
last night felt a sense of betrayal. so that was how betrayal felt like. someone went beyond testing MY waters. someone went beyond my ability to TRUST. somehow, im feeling tired. still feeling tired from last night's happening. minor, but major to me. i just cant seem to put it behind me. WAY TOO COINCIDENTAL. maybe that's what makes them two 'best friends' who share each other each other's secrets.
im going to give up being a friend who you can almost anything talk to. because it's just so tiring. i told you when i tell someone something i expect that person to keep it to himself didnt i? that bloody sms you sent me really hurt my feelings. even if __ should know what i told you, shouldnt I, ME ME ME ME be the one who let __ know? over here i keep our conversation private, over there you tell ___ everything. im so damn disappointed. and best part of it all, you dont even know.
and you. i told you why i felt that way that day. and straight after school you did it again. how sweet of you. guess what, this is the end of me trying to make things better. i've done what i can, i've said my piece, enough is enough, im backing off. that's what you guys want? there you go, you got what you want. im backing off.
in conclusion to my week, being frank to other people about your own feelings isnt exactly right. because it might be a weapon for them to hurt you back. thank you two so much for teaching me this lesson.
so much for putting in an effort to make things better.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Saturday, May 20, 2006
it's suppose to be a good day if you tell yourself it's going to be a good day right? if it really is, it isnt working for me. which is kind of bad. i hate feeling this horrible. i guess i'll just have to live with it until things change for the better.
'is there something wrong with you?' and burst out laughing. is that line so funny?
*patpat* 'it's just midyears, it's alright la huh.' and laugh. is that line so funny?
these are people who _____. dont try to console someone unless you mean it. and even if you mean to console, you are just hiding your fear of that person crying to you. i cant stand it okay. just shut the fuck up if you've got nothing better to say. i can handle silence much better than you bitches think i can.
there are so many things running through my head now, i dont know which to type.
okay here goes nothing. the fragility of friendship is crumpling on me faster than i thought it would. i mean, obviously it'll happen somehow. [since this is our last two terms in the same school.] i am upset about it but well. i give up trying to fix the pieces. maybe he's right. right from the start. if it means to resolve, it will in the end. SO! just leaving it as it is. hopeful that it'll turn out alright. i am too used to certain things and too emotionally connected to it to lose it all.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Sunday, May 14, 2006
i seriously seriously didnt know i was this serious until now. suddenly realise next year everything will be gone. well, maybe not all, just most of it. it's like losing grip of everything out of the blue. ah. what a crushed feeling. i thought i was just going gaga over cutesy look, but. argh. stepped myself on my toe. feel so.. flipped. like, AH! the happy high mood is gone la. and diffusion says it'll spread to others. will set it right before entering class tomorrow. just hope it doesnt twist back to hit me in my face.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
