Monday, December 27, 2004
Monday, December 27, 2004
One week and back to school. [no, not a repeat entry][if u read the previous one]
BUT, i went to school today. Yesh, today.
Pretty zombie at the start. I was all quiet and stuffs at first.
I was thinking about the SOPS, as in SOPRANOs.
1st thing 1st, im not one but i can [somehow] sing their notes.
Those way to high ones, [somehow] sometimes i can reach.
Figures. Im in ALTO 1.
What 1st comes to my mind when i think of the SOPS? Jenny.
Yup yup...she is my choir matey.
Used to heading to the choir room with her.
Used to walking slow with her.
Used to the 'crazy moments' in choir with her.
Used to singing without restrictions with her side by side.
It's the time i totally let go, free, go nutty.
Things gonna be different without her.
Without her means --
`1 no 'crazy moments', all serious [sorta]
`2 no slow walking...she does the REAL slow walking...
`3 feeling all crapped up [as in singing voice]
`4 no companion as a newcomer sec2
`5 no talks with her...during the break.
and more more more.
Today, im not used to it.
Totally?!!
Say...i need more time to accept this.
Though im not going to be REALLY alone...
but Jen is the only one that i can really go crazy with.
And Jen is like the only one who will go crazy with me.
And let go everything...
whatever crap about reputation, people think...and other stupid stuffs.
Yeah...im glad i was zombie today.
Half awake half asleep.
So,
At times,
i was thinking.
At times,
im not thinking about anything.
Just looking at the conductor,
listening,
but not a word flows into the ear,
not even my singing.
i know he's talking,
but all i hear is the laughter that i shared with her,
the laughter that can never be heard again.
The choir door swings open,
my heart flew,
i thought... ...
but no,
just the seniors.
Silly me,
how can it ever be her?
she's at the other side of the world.
I didnt really face this reality full in the face today.
I will, on wednesday.
I promise.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
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ksw to be okay.
