im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Wednesday, December 15, 2004

`sleepy`` ``

[Yesterday story told today]..

1stly i woke up at 1pm. Played computer. Check out friendster. Talk to ol'mates. Then went to another computer. Hewlett Packet one...LCD screen, to watch my old movie [nothing else to do]. Watch Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets. There is like...3cds of it. I was watching the 2nd one when i dozed off. Then it was 5.30, i retreated to by comfy bed, on the fan and sleep. Only woke up at 8.30 to eat dinner. Slack. Had chocolate heaven [walls, i think]. Watch tv programmes like...forever?? Watched CSI, the practice. Then i i slept again.

[today]**

Woke up at 9.40 to realise i was suppose to pass my friend something at 9.45.
I brushed my teeth. 9.42.
Immediately grab a shorts and change. 9.44.
Run down the stairs and tie my hair up. 9.46.
Reached ground floor. 9.49.
Scan area visible. Target not there. YET.
Great. Not late afterall.
Then she appears cladded in her three-quarter pants, band on her left hand, hair wet down.
Pass the papers and comics.
Up back home i go.

What a rush once 'sleepy gal' wakes up. =) surprisely SPEEDY tadae! Didnt quite expect such speed from myself, especially when im just awake and still in a zombie zone. Anyway, i did actually do such speed this morning.

[My little niece cried and i had to carry her. Broken train of thoughts. Haha. Hopefully this will help link the top piece to the bottom piece.]

Return home to watch cartoons on kids central. 'Horrible history'. More like 'horrible graphics'. So not interesting. Bleh. Probably it's just me. Then i return to bed. My maid took my bed clothes [whatever you call them], pillow case and most important of all, my BLANKIE. It didnt matter actually. Because i could take my sis's blanket as replacement. But it was horribly dusty. Like years not used kindaf thing. Come to think of it, yeah, 2years since my sister had her own house. Amazing how years can pass so fast without us even realising isnt it?

Anyway, back to the 'dusty blanket' thingy.

It was so hellaf dusty that it actually irritated my nose. I hate having blocked nose, cant smell food, not having a good appetite and all. Anyway, im sensitive to dustiness [if there's such a word.]. So i got quite fed up and woke up at 12. Clear my nose. And there i go, i can breathe properly again!! So why did i kick such a fuss over something that is so small? Prolly the boredom i've been having for a week or so. It's just me and my bad attitude about dusty.

Then i go turning the computer on like it's nobody's business again. =)

[0-internet stuffs-0]
Friendster, have 32 friends. My friend here say i broke the record for a newbie. Really?
Neopets, have 80000++ neopoints. That's freaking POOR isnt it??
Gunbound, double metal axe [i think]. Freaking low rank right? Havent been playing like forever!![no excuses]
Cant remember other games.

[blogging]
totally fun. because i get my own free space. then again, it seems like im talking to myself. but i love sharing thoughts. but obviously i dont have any idea how. so here i am blogging my thoughts.

A maths is actually not as horrifying or chimology as i thought i would be. It just takes time to understand and remember the formula. At least i think so, after my brother almost vomit blood while teaching me...heex ^^ pays to be the little sister and a elder brother. =) Love him always.
My sister would have died if she taught me. Cause her patience seems shortlived. Unlike my brother, SUPER patient guy. But weird thing is my sister has great patience in other things for me. Really. Still cant quite get it? Dont worry, neither can i.

Having a maid in the house...is like
having an automatic eraser to help me clear my mess.
being handicapped. I cant do anything myself w/o being told to let her do stuffs.
having another eye staring at you...
having another hand pointing at you...
having another mess to pack up [at the start]
having a 'bodyguard'.
... ...

Let's see. Im staying in a HDB flat. Executive house. Quite big. Cannot be compared to semi-D or whatever big big houses. And i have a maid. Weird isnt it?? What's the point? I mean the maid is super free in the afternoon. And she packs my stuffs like im handicap[notice THY word]. Cleans my room like there's virus in there. Messes up my table by moving my stuffs from one place to the other [hate that]. Wash my clothes until there's a detergent smell on all of them [i mean it!!]. Clean the floor until super clean [serious.]. Water the plants. Sew things. And more. What more to say?? She's wonderwoman!! lol...

Little baby. I think im super sensitive about her. I mean...i try to help and get mistaken as playing with her and not letting her sleep. Aloha? Im not the one playing, she is. Everytime she sees me, she gets excited and all. What am i suppose to do about that?? When i try to comfort her when my parents fail to, i get scolded for making more noise. But hey, the thing is, she is quiet!! -.-z Hate it when i get scoldings because of her...man...what's with it all??

My mum complains i play too much computer [true]. complains i read too much storybooks [false]. complains i play too much [false]. She complains over everything but never complain about studying.

Point taken is that STUDYING IS NEVER ENOUGH AND NEVER TOO MUCH.

++ angelic smile ++
you know what...there are angelic tears, angelic anger. =) kidding.

im torn between
silent & violent expression