Thursday, January 06, 2005
Thursday, January 06, 2005
what is there to say? i just felt empty.
ok...now i feel like crying.
what shit is this.
it's like...a while ago,
im counselling.
now,
i need it.
sheesh.
im really in deep shit.
alone somemore.
empty ends here?
no.
it goes on.
makes me wanna be sleepy all day.
not ever waking up clear-headed.
i hate to think about things i lost.
yeah,
i know,
i should think of the things i have.
remainders of what i lost,
treasure them.
i REALLY do.
but do people treasure me the way i do to them?
iunno.
i really unno.
everythings empty now.
now my parents are DRILLING me to study.
i hate this.
just the 4th day.
what to expect in near future?
nothing.
from friends?
i unno what to expect anymore.
really.
when i really unno what to expect, i think of wenny.
but she's not here anymore.
just me.
just my friends.
who has the time to listen?
who really listens?
iunno.
i dont care.
maybe after these tears dry,
i'll be all smiling again.
im sure i will.
-- fake smile that NOBODY can see through.
im torn between
silent & violent expression
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