im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Friday, January 14, 2005
Friday, January 14, 2005

Bus 31. almost empty..

[just as a pessimistic would describe it as...
ok, im not stating anything about myself being pessimistic and... fullstop!
i am middle of a pessimist and a optimist. end of story.]

back to the point...

then i was trying real hard to understand the chinese comic in my hands...i hardly succeed in doing so. So i gave up...by then, the bus was already at Marine Parade. Too late for 'sleeps'.
well...yeah, i was hesitating between alighting at the 'bubble tea' bus-stop or the 'day&night' bus-stop. [named it according to the nearest store]

Figured out the 'day&night' one.

-end of bus trip-

Now...walking to class. I met Dennis and JunWei. Well, yeah, next door peepx and sec1 & 2 mateys. But all 3 chose to act like we dont know each other. which is pretty sad. Then to avoid the awkward silence [assume that will follow...], i walked the longer route to class.

Yups. LONG and LONESOME route.

Next, i nearly died walking up to the 4th floor and the distance to my class...but obviously i didnt. -.-

Near the classroom door, "mountain lemon" guy was walking to class too!! Opposite me. Cool..haha. Anywayz, i put my bag down [ the deuter backpack] and went to the locker area to get my THICK and HEAVY chinese dictionary and the BRAND NEW english textbook.

I didnt on the light at that area. And yeah...that figures, im "blind". But i was fooling around with my locker. =) So yeah...beat it!!
So, wondering if i got the lock opened? Unfortunately, no. =(
Pretty sad bout that!!
Then that "mountain lemon" guy had to spoil my 1st lil lamo 'adventure'. -- lights on.

He was shocked to see me there, but he still managed a "Woh, GOOD MORNING!". Pretty loud about the greeting part. Yeah...surprise surprise. Such manners still managed to get into 2005...lolz.

so, back to me.
I was still trying to figure out my lock...
THEN...
Conversation Conver Conver...

"So just now you were turning your lock combi in the dark??"
' yups.'
[the "mountainy" guy opens his locker while IM STILL FIGURING OUT MINE!!!]
"Uhuh...what subjects do we have today?"
' english, chem... ...'

Then i ran away. I was freaking out. I actually forgotten my own freaking code.
My huge V.I.P dictionary is stuck in there, waiting for MOI to take it out for a walk!!
[im refering to a dog or a book? i wonder...]

Then i messaged wen wen for my code...dumbster!! [not wen wen. me!]
it's my own lock... -.-

flag raising...sorta went down alone. >.<
who cares...

then 1st lesson, english. Pretty fun!!
English Teacher ROCKS!!!!
Her name? Miss Lim May Li.
She is a REAL combination of type of teacher people wants.
Serious, funny, nice, sarcastic, interesting.
We had discussion in 6 on our fears.

We ended up talking about ghosts in school. -.-
Interesting though.
About ghosts...
Pi pi freaked out when i told her about the story...
her goosebumps were REALLY surfacing. [is that how u describe it?]

And yeah...i realised one disastrous thing about my languages.
I suck at chinese.
I suck at english too.
And then,
WHAT THE HELL AM I IN A LIT CLASS????
iunno the answer too.

i am a mediocre at both...
That's really pathetic.

Math...im trying out not taking tuitions.
Last year, i proved my mum i need no tuition to get As.
And now...
the school is about to prove me wrong.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? grr...

everything is ssosoo wrong with me.

im torn between
silent & violent expression