im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Monday, June 06, 2005
Monday, June 06, 2005

i woke up at 11. as usual. i woke up late. actually there was a let's-do-homework-together session with my forgivers groupies at 10am. i didnt go. i wouldnt miss it for the world if it wasnt the morning and that i cannot wake up. sorry peepx. that sorry is if you missed me. if you dont, no apologies. =P saving it for people who are worth to say to.

listened to geqian when my mood got disastrous. It was totally not happy. i tried telling myself to be happy. pretty successful. =) woohoo.

i was smsing suwen around 12plus when suddenly my mood got affected by the song geqian again. =( argh. hate it when my mood gets affected. carmen says im emotional. guess she's right. i can get really moved by some kind of IDOL drama show. well well. then again, it's pretty fun to feel things. be sensitive. but not good if im sensitive in the wrong way, which i am. sadly.

but things will change. =) im going out on wednesday. whee. away from home. walking around. the point of my old friends and me meeting up is to talk and keep in contact. most probably spending money on some worthless things. gosh. how much fun can that be?

last night. my dad and i stayed up to watch a movie called 'Meet Joe Black'. even though it's a long and naggy one, the movie's plot is pretty nice. the DEATH comes to take this rich and powerful old man who has got nothing to lose. [sorry, i didnt take note of the names. except Joe Black.] then this old man has two daughters. he treasures the younger one[the doc] more. this younger one likes this guy called Joe Black. blah blah. Joe Black actually met with a car accident. He dies and DEATH takes his body. DEATH loves peanut butter and the doc. In the end after the wonderful 65year celebration party, DEATH leaves Joe Black's body and bring the old man onto the death road. Sweet DEATH brought Joe Black back to life for the love he himself had for the doc. =) sweet. I slept at 2.

Thanks for those two peepx who actually asked me [last night] if i was going to the session today. i thought nobody bothered to ask me. Im the only one who is bothered to ask around. =) turn out the other way. people are concern if i go or not. probably out of courtesy as a good friend to ask, but it's nice to know people are bothered. ^^

I was doing homework at home. imma good kiddo. thinking of all the powerful characters in Dan Brown's books. Why does it seem like they are so perfect? An answer came to me. This is reality, that is fantasy. Not exactly fantasy but somewhat alike to fantasy. well well.

To ting. No matter what there is bound to be a way out for friends, one way or another. It's not as bad as it seem to be. It's just a phase and it'll pass somehow just like how we became great friends after all those serious misunderstandings. You yourself say she's a good friend. Why let a thing move your heart for her? this will prolly evolve to a really GREAT friendship. =) im here to listen always.

Well, i gotta go to crappy sec3 chinese tuition. They are total slackers. Not that im any different, just that i love the sec4 people i've been studying with. They are so motivating. They keep me on my feet at chinese tuition. Now, i can slack as much as i like. But i dont want to. I want the group to move together at a same pace or even faster than me. It's challenging. Man. Im crazy. i love slacking but i dont want to slack when im given a chance to. damnit. this is the real me. i slack but i need something to tell me not to. not my family though. my friends.

im torn between
silent & violent expression