Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
listening to jay chou's hui dao guo qu.
thought of primary school..first two years of secondary school. and then now. everything's change. The way i think, the way i walk and talk [not that i can remember. but there's bound to be a difference.], the way i listen. well, those who really knew me since sec1 will understand that. sec 1 super noisy, have a huge attitude, easily pissed, playful, still fight a little, oppose teacher..
sec 2 quieter, less attitude, calm-er, dont fight anymore.. sec 3, iunno. from my parents, it sounds like i've grown to be more playful and less studious. -.- from my friends, i become more studious and silent, less playful.
TOTAL OPPOSITES.
WHICH IS WHICH???
blehx. this is full of crap. But that is it. I am still me. for the worst of for the better, this is me.
anyway, today was pretty fun. I got into class at 11. took a lift from my dad actually, 'cause i woke up late. 'cause my hair's short, i actually din comb it. Not that i ever really did comb my hair. not even when i had my long hair. it doesnt tangle back then, surprisingly. now it still doesnt tangle. anyway, i love my fringe. =P hope that doesnt become an obssession. back to my class which is 3 FORGIVENESS. so cool. we are all nice forgivers. i never love my class this much, feels like back in primary 6. the feeling is like, i dont ever want to leave this class and this group of people [no matter how much you dislike some people in it...(learnt to like everyone and dislike no one at all)].
in class. qin asked 'so late, what time you wake up?'. i woke up at 10. =P that was the time i was supp to be in class to do deco. Then yeah..i reached at 11. one hour late. but it seemed expected of me. even the slacker[derek] in the class came at 10. amos was even better. he was there at 7. prolly sleeping and not doing his work, i mean, no one's there to nag at him. =)
then the other group of guys were playing chess. [is 'playing' the right word?] wenjie, jt, junhao, amos. hmmz. what are they here for? -.-
then we sat around lazing, i took out my pile of teenagers magazine. justina and carmen went nuts over it. [exaggerating =)] read read read. then justina sounded like she was preparing for oral. she went 'to prevent food disorder... ...' [something like that.]
then i said ' no, should prepare for chinese one. it's somewhere in july.'
she went 'shi wu guai wu' [direct translation -- weird food eating creature.]
actually, what she meant was 'food disorder'. rofl.
i love talking to carmen..^^ carmen's so cute and nice. =) well well. i send them outta school. hee.
then we, no. qin, pei, sam and suwen finish up the notice board. then suwen and derek =) [heh] did the choc-jelly-throw thingy..missed a lot. wasted a lot of good chocolates too!! =(
then sam [derek's shimu] and derek played gai-qi. chessed covered,half board. i had fun messing it all up. looked like mahjong. -.- then yeah..derek won, his reaction was very very exaggerated. while sam's reaction was pretty bored.
then we walked out. five of us. samsam, qin, me, suwen and derek. samsam and qin was walking in front. then suwen and derek walk walk yakyak. i was stucked in between. cut into whoever's conversation seemed so wrong. so i decided to walk in the middle. ^^ then suwen talked to me. nice girl. then saw ms teo. SHE'S SUCHA NICE TEACH!!! ^^
then we [suwen and me] had prata. Qin, Samsam and derek had fujian mee or what. guess who had the largest order? [ppl who guess correct earns no price. =)] derek of course. his metabolism sure is good. NOT FAT AT ALL. lol. took his remaining money to pay for suwen and mine's prata. lol. exploiting??
then we sat there hesitating if we should go home sleep, go bowling or go marine parade get stuffs. in the end. qin and me got our at the malay shop instead of going marine parade. then qin ran after bus 76 go home. left with sam, me, suwen and derek. sam wanted to go bowling. derek wanted to go home sleep. suwen was somewhere in the middle. =) i wanted to go home. in the end, suwen and derek went home together. sorta. i accompanied sam awhile until bus40 came. then i took bus12 home. then stuffs happened. iunno how to describe it but it was embarassing. so let's drop it. =)
I LOVE MY GROUP OF PEEPX.
after listening to so many songs...im back to listening 'hui dao guo qu'.
so nice. =) love his songs. so so SSSSOOOO nice. his voice too. im crazy.
life's a wonderful thing. treasure it.
anyone who thought of suicide is dumb. is a loser.
i was one a dumbster and a loser.
but now, no.
i'm gonna prove myself wrong.
though im still gonna continue being that lazy me.
im not gonna get another grade that gives permission for my bro to suan me, my dad to scold me, my sis to shake head, my mum to be disappointed.
NO WAY.
even if it's like..
nothing's ever good enough for all of you.
i dont care.
what's good enough for all of you is something i cannot reach.
at least for now, i cant.
laugh, scold and ground me for all you want.
year end,
you are so dead man.
it's gonna be me who take the last laugh.
WAHAHAHHA. [sound so uncivilised. =P]
im torn between
silent & violent expression
