im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Thursday, June 16, 2005
Thursday, June 16, 2005

something's wrong with my brain. i can tell. 'cause we [sheery, jialing, xiumin, weiyi, kaiting, stephanie and me] went from school to sing post. reminded me of previous outing with frisbees.
=)
was a nice memory. probably that's the reason whyy i can recall so clearly like it just happen yesterday. =) i was grinning all the way i think. but i yakked with sheery ALL THE WAY. so amazing that i yakked throughout the 'journey'.

then i thought of the icecream place. hmms. what happen to the 'next icecream outing'?? I thought suwen was planning for one. Maybe someone couldnt turn up, so she's not in the mood to plan the outing.. hmm. that's probably a good guess. i can tell. heex.
sorry but i cant help it. hehx. it's fun you know. but here's the end.

so..that was how i felt.
then when i walked the gate again,
i remembered how i met. him
for the first time.
on my way walking in.
that silent greeting kinda thing.
was kinda sweet actually.
i wonder.
in a year, how many times do you get sucha dong ren xin[heart touching] de silent greeting in the morning? probably once or twice? gosh. it is REALLY heartwarming.

then you probably guess that this girl stands at the gate thinking
but nah.
i walked on. =)

yup. this is me. no matter how much i can or will think about it.
it'll still come to me as one word.
and that is..it IS just an event of the

PAST.

as for now,
the path lies ahead.
there it is laid in front.
of course im still walking.
but the way i do it will be different somehow.
cos i know something already. =)
and im not sure if i should tell.
it might hurt some people.
i only told some, so yeah. >.<
it's a shush thing.
anyway.
walk on peepx.
no matter what,
dont turn back.
cos there's a high possibility of you regretting.
and you dont want that.
cos you dont want to live your life filled with regrets.
=)

im torn between
silent & violent expression