im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Sunday, July 24, 2005
Sunday, July 24, 2005

all minor happenings summed up to major unsatisfactory. then a flash. everything has a fullstop. what rubbish is that? misunderstanding and pissed with each other for months, and one day, it's all settled? is it real or just an imaginery barrier placed in between so we can dont feel hurt anymore? i dont know. i just hope it's real. because if it's just a facade, it's just going to hurt more. and i wont allow myself to be hurt like that again. call me selfish. i dont care. this is the way i am now. im happy. even if i hope i really am. im just going to be straight and not beat around the bush. THIS IS ME. so back off if you arent ready to face the real me. then again, i wonder why am i holding back still. lols. prolly i still take you as my GOOD friend and not "good" friend. prolly cause i belief there's good in you. something i can really believe in. iunno. i dont care. this is your chance to prove me right. i'll still be here for you. even all those things you did. i know it already. you know who you are. i was thinking about our messages. maybe before all these you felt the way i felt last night. bored and cold and disbelief unfeeling replies. maybe that explains why we dont message each other much. that feeling sucks doesnt it? oh wells. that's the end of it. school's starting and let's be 'good' friends again. =)

but maybe. let's go without the inverted commas.
just maybe.

a wishful thought?

im torn between
silent & violent expression