im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Wednesday, September 28, 2005

silence pays off. =)

it's the coolest wednesday i had so far. besides the pissing off parts. silence really pays off. talking wont help. just the silence. it erases the anger off, cancel agreements, wipes off tears. and hell! POOF! nobody knows why i was like this today. WHY? because im always this quiet. i didnt mind the loneliness today. i cant be bothered. YESH. you heard me. i cant be bothered. anymore.

so. she doesnt have people to pei after school. after oral, i waited. what i get? ignorance. good. then she has people to pei and decides to wait and rushes me off to music. yes. friends do rush me to lessons=) good friends walk me to my class. after lessons, i msged her. she was sarcastic [or so i thought.] and then, she never replies. interesting. i pissed her off? oh so sorry. let's just say, i have no idea how and why. maybe she'd like to tell me. why shouldnt i be more pissed than she is when the previous day i left and no one msgs or calls me and even think i was playing and EVEN continue until 10mins later leaves and STILL NO CALL/MESSAGE. another lesson learnt. never expect friends to react to you the way they react to others. fcuk.

looked into the auditorium. only jonT was left waiting for a vacency with the invigilator. I hand-signalled him 'why arent you moving?' he signalled back saying ' i want Mr Lee.'
then MR YELLOW saed
'isnt that obvious? he has his pointers pointed at him.'
i looked at jonT again, this time noticing his shoes. yes, it was pointing at Mr Lee.!! LOLS!

burger, mr yellow, whadever nicks. told me not to say that WORD while he says it himself.
'dont learn that.'
'you taught me.'
'i didnt teach you that.'
'indirectly you did.'
'no i didnt.'
yeah. how lame can we get.. then all of us, the WHOLE BUNCH of FORGIVERS walked out together. was interesting. there were more than 10 of us in addition. then we took 135. eight of us. JonT, derek, amos, pok, qin, pei, kah and me. interesting. i sat alone throughout the bus ride. i was totally about to fall asleep when the bus stopped at paya lebar area. got off with JonT, amos and pok.

Then, went on to sing post. there and then, jonT and amos made a joke out of me. alrighteys, my fault for being blur. lols. i asked amos to go watch DARK WATERS after exams and he said

'im no horror maniac.'

WHOEVER SAID YOU NEED TO BE ONE TO WATCH HORROR??

then, jonT and him were discussing about the plot. i asked amos how he knows the plot. and here's what i heard him answering my question.

' 'cause i watched the shoulder.'

so i 'what shoulder?' at him and he burst out laughing, jonT too.

' i said. i watched the TRAILER.'

sudden realisation of my mistake, i chuckled. then it went on. yesh. HE ENJOYED HIMSELF!!

oh. did i mention? he even told jonT

' eh. you pass on the hearing defectiveness to her already.'

how interesting!! the one on the train is better.

' dont need to tell her byebye cause she wont hear you.'

okae. whadever.
silence DO pay off.

im torn between
silent & violent expression