Generally, all of us started out as a child with a innocent mind containing innocent ideas. Having innocent ideas like hiding little control panel under the sofa and laughing about it when they find it days after. Having a innocent mind that sees things just as it is and not lying about it being something majestic, for example a crowd sees a painting done by a popular artist, most will compliment it with great words but a child would just say 'it's a painting.' and nothing else.
Then, all of us change as years go by, forming minds with no duplication or whatsoever, just one special mind belonging just to one person -- individuals. This is how conflicts start out between people, this is when simple things start to get complicated, this is when people part without saying goodbye.
Here, is where this all started.
Here, is where i want it to end.
It was nothing. Really. Then your mind started to complicate things. It didnt bother me, your obsession i mean. It really didnt. But it didnt occur to me that your obsession will become the reason why this friendship is this gone. I had thought it was me. I had thought it was me. I REALLY thought it was me. Then, I thought backwards, and i realised. It started from there. From where you knew me. From where I took him as 'dad'. From where I started winning smiles and losing tears. Now, you brought me back to square one. To where I hesitated, afraid to make a move, afraid to take a firm stand. To where I had to think so hard I just wish I could just give up. I thought I could. And I did for one moment. Then this song came on the radio making me think again -- I cannot give up because I hadnt put in my best yet.
'Do you treasure this friendship?'
[sounded like in the church 'do you take this man as your husband?']
'Will you want to work hard to save this friendship?'
'i guess not.. '
'then you are giving up.'
'yeah.. i am..'
'before giving up, will you give her a chance and yourself too, to see a better her and you?'
This is probably the last effort im willing to give.