im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Wednesday, March 01, 2006

why am i starting to feel the 'bridge' again? Is it me being sensitive?? SU-EN-TRICE [su and trice] AH! SAVE ME!! =( anyway, today is the last day of CT! and that marks the beginning of slogging all over again. AND FUN too. hopefully tomorrow proves that it's alright to have some crazy fun once in awhile. so i'll sleep early tonight so i wont get moodswings tomorrow.

speaking of moodswings. i got foul mood after the emath test. everyone around me was discussing about the paper. as quoted from Mrs Ho, 'like the paper is very important.' im definitely not saying it's anybody's fault. it's just me la huh. just me myself me.

one thing to note. im getting the wantonfeverish-illness. SOMEBODY TAKE ME AWAY FROM WANTON NOODLES. -.- lols. alright, it's kind of obvious now that im really bored?.

apparently i've been feeling really distant these days. i mean, with [almost] everyone. so it likes little things make me really high. like seeing that cute guy along the corridor. and listening to shannwee at night. and singing xiaochenli from HUOYUANCHIA. *hinthint* now you know what symptoms show that im feeling distant.

i realised something. when we arrange according to class register numbers. only suwen+me and kuat+sim sit next to our partners! so interesting la. =))

then today we were made to arrange our tables and chairs back to 'norm'. LOLS. the class was in a huge commotion for about 7mins or so. pretty fun though. all i did was stand by my chair. help adjust tables and chairs for people to move around while the others were like moving from the front to the back and viceversa. =)

jona was being the usual joker. he slumped into the chair beside me, called me, smiled and said.
'eh carry me over.'

suwen, wyn and pei are reaaaalllly fun to be around la! serious. recess time with them was havoc-ly fun and hilarious! emo specs, muffin, universal sign and that ekky i-dunno-how-to-wear-bra-ass was the butt of our jokes. mainly the first and the last things la. we are sooo evil. but evil people live long. SO YEAH. suwen got shot back after sometime. =)) all thanks to.. HEH! and i finally understood what's with the 'all hail buzzbuzz' thing. o.O like it was my 'dad' and i didnt know. well, in no place to comment anything about it la.

i bet tomorrow's going to be real fun! i so so SSSOOO look forward to it la. so i hope nothing spoils the thing tomorrow. i wont even allow myself to spoil it la! =) and after asking jona why he doesnt want to go. i was feeling like 'oh! like that ah.' -.- i think im too used to just going out in threes and thus used to suwen and jona's presences all at the same time. he says it's not a horror movie so he isnt really keen on going. pa-daa. that's one horror-flick. anyway, dear dear DEAR suwen who likes to read obituaries [is that the spelling?], im going. hopefully nothing last minute will stop me from doing so. =))

then there was the chemistry remedial which i sort of attend it alone. pei left with qin and kel. wyn and su went to the mp. i didnt go because i thought su looked like she had things to talk with wyn in private. matter of fact, actually i was really tempted to pon choir. but yeah. let's just leave it there, yeah? anyway, i said i attended chem remedial alone right? i meant without wyn, su and pei. so it was rather=( but quite interesting because jona was playing with the mobile karaoke and kuat was like.. i dont know. doing something funny? =)

'any other songs?'
'nopes, just this one.'
'ha-ha-ha. so lame!'

then he leaves his handphone on his deck playing some song and left the classroom awhile. i dont think it's eninem. didnt sound like it.

darn. ionic equation, three catagories 1) precipitate reaction 2) displacement reaction 3) metal and grp7. and i didnt know how to do the 2nd question. calcium carbonate and nitric acid, i think. asked amos and came to no conclusion, REGRETFULLY. i think i'll have to start memorising the reactivity series and solubility thing. so yeah, my chemistry is that bad. so just stfu if you arent going to help me get better in it. if you want to say it's easy in my face, you are in for trouble alright. yes, that's a warning. maybe im threatening you, i dont know. figure it out yourself since you are such a smartarse.

after mrs lim left the classroom, i started packing up. i found this line particularly sweet for i-dont-know-what-reason.
'then what am i staying back for?'

sometimes things happen when you least expect it.
sometimes it feels so right you just want to tell the person the truth

'i love you.'

but sometimes it's been said so much it becomes.

just a joke.

im torn between
silent & violent expression