im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Tuesday, March 21, 2006

i was so angry, so angry i wanted to type all the shite out so i'll feel better. also change the blog address so nobody, nobody at all, will be affected by it. but i decided not to do so, instead consider those happy funny things that happened today and forget those fucking *ahem* things. so yeah. whatever. me and the big smile. whatever.

basically today is really slacky. having cme, pastoral care and english all in one schedule of five periods and one recess break. HAHA, we lead a slacky life. yesterday we had motivational talk in school, today pastoral care teacher aka gaychua gave out worksheets concerning our exam prep, during exam and after exam. it's really dumb but whatever, it's the system.

all hell broke loose after school. -.- not funny.

1.redhead and group played with some bottles, making them 'deformed'. and carrot explained it as a form of destressing before taking their chinese oral. 2. wyn pei and i hid suwen's handphone. poor thing eh? =P sorry ah. had fun preventing her from taking her handphone back though. 3. caught d****** using the hanky. FUNNY AH! it was though. =)) this week was like WOAH! because i saw him many many many times in one day. yesterday and today. ahhhh.. [sigh with contentment. HAHA, FUNNY AH!] 4. i think tee snatched the waterbottle away from me or something to squirt me back. so i took sim's waterbottle to arm myself. and the 'waterwar' begins. strangely he knows the sim's waterbottle is empty! in the end, we both got one shot at each other. not as wet as the last time stupid silong pour water over me-.- crazy people. 5. suwen and gel imitated funny accents. hilarious! 6. mrs yee asked carrot what's with the huge letter 'J' on his bookcover. kuat went 'jasmine jasmine!' and derek said 'it's jasmine.' funny ah! afraid to let others know you are gay right? =D 7. i was on time [late]. i went up to class to put my bag before going for flag-raising. i saw opposite of me walking into class just at the same time as me. talk about coincidence.

in the bus, i checked my phone for timing. no message receive. and i thought, maybe hit her max msg count already. im too used to certain things and when it changes i feel uncomfortable. but nevermind. i will adapt to it. IM A LIVING THING AFTERALL!! lols.

anyway. im still fussing over ranking friends, according to their importance. boys and girls, all the same what. just that they have different sexual organs and different voicepitch what. whatever la. i just. forget it. not like explaining to you will do any difference to what you already said. sorry that i even mention about that thing. not like you dont know i __________ [fill in the blankS.] whatever.

tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow

why dont i sound excited?
dont fucking try to bring me down by saying things like 'so and so is better'. fuck you alright. fuck you. this is not what i call friends. FUCK YOU FOR EVEN TRYING TO BRING ME DOWN. FUCK. YOU.

im torn between
silent & violent expression