Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
i dont want to be like Orh-ssin-no, wallowing in self-pity. it's outrageous and nobody will give a damn. im not some oh-so-rich-kid or anyone to be really looking up to. so that's fine with me. i'll just have to be in this plight for as long as it lasts.
feels so darn pathetic, but anyway, who ask me to be this stupid and careless. it's my own fault and no matter how much tuition i have it wont help. did this compo today. suppose to find a title of our own from the magazine YI LING. and i did. those that caught my eyes seemed to point at my studies. and i did write about my studies. i wrote quite a bit before i got stuck at the second page. Geraldine read my essay, she went 'there's two points you can write from. the results or the stress. i sense more stress la, so i'll continue the compo emphasising on that.' aha. it's true that writing shows true emotions.
three things that made my day much better.
`1. i wrote 'you can write about the world, but the world wont remember you.' in the aussino notebook and wyntrice answered it with 'if the world slaps you slap it back. toss your head and just WALK ON BY!!!'
`2. i met priscilla at the bus12 busstop. when we got on the bus, i confide to her about my studies which i failed by 1-2marks and none passing. and i studied for it, so to hell with studying for tests. [or not.] when i was about to go, she told me 'jasmine, i love you. dont be stressed okay?' i turned and told her 'me too.' she did the handsign. 'love. you.' and waved byebye.
`3. suwen talking about those 'awkward' things to me. things i never thought she'd talk to me about until i do.
i tried to be high this morning. HAHA. but got to tired by literature. ended up snoozing awhile, and i really fell asleep until my leg went numb and i woke up. dava loves to create 'RECREATION' for his students in the march holidays. he threw a stack of homework to us. act one, create two questions and get the answers. also, the unseen prose.
i saw temasek junior college then a thought struck me. dont get stuck in the moment, live for the moment. after telling everything to them, maybe i'll feel better [or get into more trouble.]. anyway, it's a long way to PRELIMS. and i'll crash course it. even if it takes me to sacrifice my life. i will do it. say im a slave of the books for all you want.
recess gone by fast with blasting of losing yourself and simianchuge and shanhuhai through the earphones in my ears. i finished the geog hw in 10mins. amazing record. and suwen drew a smiley face on my paper. thanks girl, i need it a lot. =)
like my bro told me. if you are angry with that person, vent your anger only on that person. i guess i havent master the art of it yet. =( but i will soon, filling my head up with inspirational stories, nice angry songs, happy songs.
anyway, i shall not be bothered anymore. like i've been saying since monday, it doesnt pay to be nice. so say sayonara to 'nice' and aloha! 'mean'.
carrot [kered] wrote my name on my arm. thinking i can wash it away, i just let him draw. then soon enough, redhead joined in. he wrote 'gaymine gong'. [joke of the day!] their drawings went alll the way up my arm, and it looked horrible. like my arm's in a skin-coloured cast covered with drawings. stupid redhead wrote so hard, my skin turned red. after all the work, i went to wash it off, TO NO AVAIL. but anyway, the soap should do the job. =)) p.s: i didnt know sim had so much strength. -.-
i dont know girl. just give me a call or whatsoever if you really mean to talk. i seriously left my phone on the table. i was seated away from my desk, if you happened to see me when you entered FG for a short laughter with sim.
one shite, two shite, three shite, four.
four shite, three shite, two shite, one.
you have none.
GOOD FOR YOU. =D
im torn between
silent & violent expression
