im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Friday, March 10, 2006
Friday, March 10, 2006

say sayonara to school and aloha! march holidays packaged with stacks and stacks of homework. naming ENGLISH, CHINESE, PHYSICS, AMATHS, SOCIALSTUDIES, E.LIT. my my, that's a lot.

saw ***. like FINALLY. in the lecture theatre that is. =)) caught *** sleeping and all. so cute. geez, ask me when this cute fetish about *** will stop. im telling you i dont know. =) somehow, i felt like he caught me looking. [horrible] but it's alright. looking is no crime.

anyway, the main thing was about the lecture. it was about studies. as usual. torturous, slow, stupid talk. i think they should hold some talks for parents too. i think teenagers like us listen to it ALL THE TIME. sometimes, adults should really lay back and relax on the topic about studies. i made a sarcastic-short-laughter when the principal talked about 'trusted adults'. sometimes, 'trusted adults' are under so much pressure themselves, they dont even have the time to listen. what more is left to say about REALLY listening.

HA. 'trusted adults' advice? you are not trying hard enough. define trying. define hard. define every single thing they say, and you'll realise they dont even know what they are saying! as much as it makes sense to our tinney-winney brains, we dump them all in the dustbins. but then, im not saying adult's major speech about studies are total trash. most of the time it makes sense. other times, we just dont want to take it in. let's just put it in some complicated language [or not].

'trusted adults' and us are on different wavelengths that with certain KEY, the wavelengths join to become one wavelength.

i realised anything can be linked to studies. even walkman can be linked to studies. LOLS. speak about twisted minds. how twisted can those 'trusted adults' minds be? THAT TWISTED, alright.

speak about contradictory. everybody contradicts their speech in one way or another. ALWAYS. try remembering the conversation you had. the sentences in it will most probably end up contradicting.

realised that aloha to march holiday is full of reluctance. holiday but that means less seeing of classmates and friends AND MORE 'STUDY! O'LEVELS! STUDY!!'. fuck it. blogging seems to become my form of release. plug-in became my form of relieving stress. staying long hours in school doesnt seem to be so dissing anymore. instead, it felt really comfortable. guess my next line. school's my home. i love staying in school. ask me to stay in school with you. if i have no obligations, I WILL STAY IN SCHOOL WITH YOU.

i want walkman. i want fullhouse dvd. i want one litre of tears dvd. i want *points around the classroom* you, you, you, you, you and you to celebrate with me. i want to do anything i feel like doing that day. I WILL SKIP CHOIR. i want pencilcase. i want that nike jacket. i want letters of recognition. i want to show you my princessy attitude. [the last one's a joke.]

i want so many things.

but one thing that'll definitely make me the happiest that day.

YOU remembering it.

im torn between
silent & violent expression