last night was one really weird ____. fill in the blank. i have no idea what is that word. but it just felt really REALLAY weird. and thanks to wyntrice who heard me out past midnight. =) need it a lot a lot a lot.
emotions went loose. i thought i only allow that to happen when i drink. or when im pissed. or, i dont know. it was really queer. i guess i need a break from some people. this whole week of march holidays will do good. real good. im not going to ask those people out. i really hope it's not what i think it feels like. i dont want it to be that way. i rather be having cute-fetish over d-yeo than to feel that way. damnit damnit DAMNIT!
im starting to miss people right now. even those people i need break from. and i miss them a lot.
i wish i can be damn truthful but i cannot be because there will always be some form of implications. and that really sucks.
if knowing you for who you are is a mistake, then maybe i should stop seeing you for who you are and see you as an idiot with a wallet.
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today i spent my day looking through some stuffs. MP3. one's on the way to my hands. i like the sony one. i dont know. i'll have to convince my sister to buy that 'cause she likes the creative one better. whatever la. im getting a mp3, that's it, fullstop! shucks, wyntrice, this is driving me nuts. even the word 'fullstop' reminds me of him. damnit.
then i returned home at 4+, took a nap. ate maggiemee, came online and typed this whole row of bullshite. weird how come a good day can be ruined. fish&co in the afternoon, maggiemee at night.
it's weird. it's weird how confused i am because of you when you have done nothing to me at all. it's weird how i feel like playing story-telling songs instead of senseless ones. it's weird how i can panic when im so clear-headed in giving others advice about such matters. it's weird. it's really weird. so weird, it's driving me up the walls.
tell me how to make this feeling disappear,
because i dont want it here.
it's making me feel so terrible,
im going to burst like a bubble.
