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Monday, April 10, 2006
Monday, April 10, 2006
saw a different side of myself today.
got up the bus, stared at the empty seat, scan the area for seat-needy-people. none. so i sat there. wasnt in the mood to talk to ANY stranger but this stranger sitting beside me asked me about cchms. so yadaa yadaa. bet it's some mother with a P6 kid. answered her questions dutifully and shut her up by putting on my earpiece and blasting mo ri zhi lian. then this weird thought came to me. 'as a student, im given no time for any personal relationships as close as bgr due to thy reason -- it-might-affect-your-studies. so therefore, the only time i can be self-indulgent as the lovesick ass like duke orsino is when i plug-in and listen to the lyrics of loveydovey sobby songs. other than that, im a plain student with only books in my head.'
there was this confusion between 'amigo' and 'flammingo'. HAHA. i was laughing straight for almost 2h. and wyn and i did the flammingo thing whenever we see each other in the corridor. i bet we must have looked like lunatics. amigo means friend right? well, since sw was like totally blurdo and mistook it for the pink bird, i jokingly called silong 'flammingo' instead of 'amigo'. and what was funnier was that silong is southern arabia, so how can there be flammingo? therefore, he's the RED bbq flammingo. oh yeah, silong has many nicknames. 'pythagoras theorum', 'tampines tiger', 'southern arabian', 'mexica', 'bbq flammingo', 'big glucose'. pick one to call him! HAHA.
during english lesson, pei and i were trying to give each other english names. pei's name must start with letters k, y, z. mine must start with letters d, y, l. HAHA. so difficult la. i dont want names like doreen. i dont mind the name DAMIEN lei! HAHA. joking joking. people, help me think of a name for pei please. =)
it makes me wonder why a two year friend seems to understand you so much more than a four year friend. maybe time is nothing when it comes to understanding each other. but then, people usually say 'some day, you'll understand.' so it does take time to understand. but what the hell, this must be another contradictory in life that cannot be untangled.
in the bus. there was this tall stranger. black jacket with a hood, white shirt, baggy pants, pretty fringe, handsome frame. but obviously there's a downside la. =/ but anyway, it's not his appearance that matters. it's what he did. he looked at me and i looked at him. and we turned away. stupid but weirdly, we looked at each other again. like some sort of recognition, he smiled and didnt turn away this time. somehow acknowledging we were looking at each other. stupid eh? this sounds stupid. but i felt like dejavu. maybe like carrot said, i should have asked him if we met before. but well, the period of silence was more of enjoyment than awkwardness.
i was ultra-nice today. because i helped kuat carry his heavy file because he had sorethroat. [tho it's irrelevant.] i didnt blow my lids off when i felt disgusted and angry. i paid FULL attention today. the chem test today was like shite. because of my stupidity. AAAH!