it's suppose to be a good day if you tell yourself it's going to be a good day right? if it really is, it isnt working for me. which is kind of bad. i hate feeling this horrible. i guess i'll just have to live with it until things change for the better.
'is there something wrong with you?' and burst out laughing. is that line so funny?
*patpat* 'it's just midyears, it's alright la huh.' and laugh. is that line so funny?
these are people who _____. dont try to console someone unless you mean it. and even if you mean to console, you are just hiding your fear of that person crying to you. i cant stand it okay. just shut the fuck up if you've got nothing better to say. i can handle silence much better than you bitches think i can.
there are so many things running through my head now, i dont know which to type.
okay here goes nothing. the fragility of friendship is crumpling on me faster than i thought it would. i mean, obviously it'll happen somehow. [since this is our last two terms in the same school.] i am upset about it but well. i give up trying to fix the pieces. maybe he's right. right from the start. if it means to resolve, it will in the end. SO! just leaving it as it is. hopeful that it'll turn out alright. i am too used to certain things and too emotionally connected to it to lose it all.
