im tired of all this shit i just want to GET AWAY

Sunday, August 06, 2006
Sunday, August 06, 2006

learnt a great pile from the show pei and i started watching recently. no, not the loveydovey stuffs. just. about being frank.

last night felt a sense of betrayal. so that was how betrayal felt like. someone went beyond testing MY waters. someone went beyond my ability to TRUST. somehow, im feeling tired. still feeling tired from last night's happening. minor, but major to me. i just cant seem to put it behind me. WAY TOO COINCIDENTAL. maybe that's what makes them two 'best friends' who share each other each other's secrets.

im going to give up being a friend who you can almost anything talk to. because it's just so tiring. i told you when i tell someone something i expect that person to keep it to himself didnt i? that bloody sms you sent me really hurt my feelings. even if __ should know what i told you, shouldnt I, ME ME ME ME be the one who let __ know? over here i keep our conversation private, over there you tell ___ everything. im so damn disappointed. and best part of it all, you dont even know.

and you. i told you why i felt that way that day. and straight after school you did it again. how sweet of you. guess what, this is the end of me trying to make things better. i've done what i can, i've said my piece, enough is enough, im backing off. that's what you guys want? there you go, you got what you want. im backing off.

in conclusion to my week, being frank to other people about your own feelings isnt exactly right. because it might be a weapon for them to hurt you back. thank you two so much for teaching me this lesson.

so much for putting in an effort to make things better.

im torn between
silent & violent expression