this week i went to peipei's house there to eat TWICE! first time was fish soup and duck with rice. it tasted great! and it felt like tuanyuanfan. second time i went there, i ate chickenchop which was okayokay. i know two ways of getting home from there. hopefully the next time i go, i wont get lost le.
this week. depression sort of sunk in. but anyway, it's gone now. all thanks to the.. wet pyjamas, 'on da street' gang [jokers] and my own trueblue brother. i'll take it in my stride and do whatever within my limits to make it better. it's just me and myself now.
'i gave it my all
but it wasnt enough
im giving up.
no, im pushing on.
what for?
making the same mistake
day after day
for such a rat race
i have no faith.
life has its up and down
and i hate it anyway
but i love it anyway.
one life one shot
that's all we ever got.
it takes two to make it right.
and that's me and my pride.
here we'll go
BEATING THE ODDS WITH A ROYALFLUSH!'
'everything is empty
everything is so messed up
everyone is changing
there's no one left that is real.
make up your own ending
let me know just how you feel.'
sad to say,
my largest motivation is still 041.
let's just keep it going on and on.
i wonder what you saw when you saw me crying. it felt weird when you told me not to go too far away and cry at a place where you cannot find and that you'd rather watch me cry. it felt nice when you said you had nothing to do and so you thought of messaging me. you made me feel nicer about myself when you said things like 'zhao gu you forever okay'. maybe im taking your words too seriously. anyway, it's so you to say those things.
